Saturday, April 19, 2014
Friday, April 18, 2014
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Fiona Apple - Across the Universe (Official Video)
ian/mickey | latch
" I've got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love"
WHEN I WAS A PARATROOPER IN THE 82ND AIRBORNE DIVISION IN 1972 THERE WERE MANY RACIAL TENSIONS. ESPECIALLY AT FORT BRAGG IN NORTH CAROLINA WHICH HAD A HUGE UGLY KKK BILLBOARD JUST OFF POST. ONE DAY A WHITE SOLDIER PLAYED THIS ALBUM IN OUR BARRACKS. THE BLACKS SOLDIERS LOVING IT AND WENT LOOKING FOR THE ROOM THAT HAD THE STEREO. THEY EXPECTED A FELLOW BLACK SOLDIER. THEY WERE SHOCKED TO FIND WHITE GUYS OWNED IT AND WE WERE GROOVING TO IT. THE BLACK GUYS ASKED US WHERE WE FIRST HEARD THE BAND WAR. WE EXPLAINED WE WERE FROM CALIFORNIA AND EVERY RACIAL GROUP HAD PEOPLE WHO LOVED WAR. AFTER THAT THE BLACK SOLDIERS KNEW WE COOL AND WE BECAME FRIENDS.
I have memories of this band in my childhood. I can remember just having it play in the background. Some adult played this album continuously on the weekends, probably an older sibling, as I got most of my early exposure to music from them and top 40 radio. It was always a mellow time. I don't associate it with any of our times terrorizing the neighborhood with rollerskates and bicycles. Or any of the angrier times in my childhood (oh yea lots of anger). It was a good time, from what I remember, funny thing being that the band is called WAR. Have a listen. Relax. -manwasIdrunk
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Fiona Apple - Love ridden
I have been a bit down these last couple of days. I watched the last SHAMELESS episode(US). The show is terribly good, and I miss it when it goes off the air at the end of each season. It is silly as a show, sad and cruel but very human. It shows people as you never see on television. In the end it's just entertainment. It is just a show and I know that.
I don't know if the work schedule is wearing on me (very possible). If my looking for a new job again so soon is wearing on me ( also possible). I don't know if everyone around me have begun taking a toll on me (sigh...also a possibility). I couldn't tell you, though for sure. I do not know. I have simply been down. It happens from time to time. I used to be down for long stretches before, and be completely unaware. It was just me and how I felt all the time. Thankfully, it happens less now then in the past, but it still happens, I guess. Don't get me wrong I still dance like no ones business and I enjoy life tremendously, but I have a little melancholy lingering on. I gravitate toward sad movies and even sadder songs. Depression as an illness is a very real condition, sadly, not everyone sees it that way. I am not in a bad condition, for sure. I am just down. So indulge some of my favorite sad songs and wait till I get the wind back in my sails, shortly I'm sure. I should note Shameless ended touching on depression as a malady known well to the clan. Here's to getting better every day. It does get better, btw, I can honestly tell you that even as down as I have been these past days, I am still so very grateful that I am aware that I am down, that I am gravitating toward sadness, instead of just floating numb and directionless in a haze of sadness. That I no longer feel that immersed in sadness is a blessing. I am aware of my sadness and I acknowledge it and recognize its presence even that it is fading more and more, with every appearance getting weaker. So...yea... it does get much better, life. Ain't it good to be alive? Even with a little sadness now and then, wouldn't trade it for nothing.
Mama Cass Eliot - Dream a little dream of me
Nina Simone - Wild Is The Wind - 03 What More Can I Say