man was I drunk !: Wednesday

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I once had a friend once that complained about always being surrounded by drama. I did think that person had a point. I felt bad for him. Somehow he was always in the middle of shit going down. People were always hitting him up about things that he was rumored to have said. I was getting these stories secondhand or more. They were elaborate, and funny and he seemed to at times seemed to enjoy it. It took me a couple of years of thinking "Man, why are people always mistakenly accusing him of shit?" before I realized that some how he was drawing this energy to him. He does like being in the middle of stuff. I understand it. A universe where everything is happening to you or somehow linked to you. I understand that need. I don't get the delusion that he is not starting some of these rumors that goes with that need. I now realize that he may have been starting some of those bad stories about him. Maybe he did say some shit about people, to people that know the first person he is talking mad shit about. I didn't believe it. I couldn't believe it. Until I witnessed it occur. Why would someone want this kind of negative attention? I came to understand that sometimes, maybe some people need the attention, any attention, even negative it makes them feel good or alive or needed. I don't really understand its origin but that it exists, of that I am sure. I have first hand seen it. Realizing that maybe this person did fully want all this negative attention and that maybe to him it wasn't negative at all, just attention.
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Sorry for posting this a bit early. I don't want to go to sleep before I get a chance to post it. I might have to change my hour to post. After midnight usually, subject to move.

I went today for no more than 60 minutes on my walk. Yes walking still makes me sweat. Yes, I am thankful that I am still doing it and not discouraged by the routine of walking. It sounds more boring than it is, once the walking starts, I love the change of scenery it's never the same. I can change routes if I please, I love walking. I get to see people doing the same every day. Not a day has gone that I have gone for a walk and seen at least one other person doing the same thing. It is usually more than three people out here. I would still do it even if I was the only person doing it. It's just cool to see others doing it too.
I am still editing my eating as I like to call it. I'm getting used to it but I'm not happy about it. I'll be fine though. I do love cottage cheese. It's delicious. I still eat cereal, I just eat less. I hope some of you decicded to join me in my journey and if you haven't, well why don't you? you haven't missed much and there's not a lot of catching up to do. Just ask your doctor if you can safely do exercise for a half hour to an hour. And then do it!!!
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You might be a drama QUEEN
If you are a person that is surrounded by people having emotional tantrums and public screaming matches you might be a drama queen. If people ever call you up to clear shit up that they heard, you might be a drama queen. If you constantly have to tell people you hate drama you might be a drama queen.
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