We Made it!! Yay!!

    End of year post.
Aww, Christmas is gone. Hope everyone got what they hoped for, hope everyone wished for peace on earth and fulfillment, yea probably not. I still hope everyone got what they wished for. Now the end of the year is here. Let's do this.
    I'm gonna close my eyes. I'm going to take a couple of deep breaths get a rhythm of some kind inhale through the nose (oxygen to vital parts), exhale through the mouth. Slow and steady until all is calm. Try it, go on...and picture what a good year looks like. What it entails and how big it can get. Do you want to be wishy-washy about job? blase about life? indifferent towards loved ones? Or EXCITED ABOUT LIFE?, GLAD FOR EVERYDAY THAT CHANGE IS POSSIBLE? GLAD TO HAVE PEOPLE AROUND US WHO CARE IN THEIR OWN WAY THAT WE ARE DOING ALRIGHT? Come now what does it look like guys??? You don't have to tell us, but you have to specifically see what it looks like to you. If you can see it, it's possible. Can you see it.
    I thought I might want something different this coming year, something big you know what I mean? I imagined something life changing and life reaffirming. I slowed myself down and thought about what I would change about last year. I started to remember this past year and it was so good, I couldn't find anything I'd change about it. When finally tallied up, it turns out I made out like a bandit. It was a wiked good year, hella good, totally awesome possum all around.
    Last year , I went camping, survived a mother bear and cubs near mis-hap on said camping trip. I also went to river and lake. I went to the swimming pool. Stood up to boss all year, and ended year on happy work schedule.I got a pup sort of. I made new friends (kinda hard for me, don't know why). I saw some old friends again. I saw old friends struggle to find footing and home and love. I'm in the best health I've been in years. I'm grateful to have so many people that love me and whom I love and was blessed with time to spend with them. Of great significance to me, I started this blog and am having the best time with it. I'm having my first new year with blog. Now it just seems like a very special year is now leaving us. So, I guess I don't want a much bigger year. I liked this past year. I know what a good year looks like. I put in some work and got returns on it. So all I'm gonna say is LETS DO IT AGAIN!!!
    I remember last year I thought I wanted a better year, well I got it. It was so full of good surprises and things I could never had asked for, but they happened anyways. You never know what's around the corner. Thanks to everyone who helped make this a great year.And here's to wishing everyone a great 2012

help, some people need it.

It's official people have started to loose their damn minds, and need some help, need a therapist and not know it. Straight up Crazy. Crazy drivers, impatient people in lines. Damn relax, plan for it, please. Sorry, I had to vent there for a sec, and yes I should be one to talk, I know. I've just been having incidents where it's the same people in my life that keep on having the same issues and problems and don't want to listen or can't apply it to their lives and then it's too late and they've said or done something that has to apologized for. And we know how hart it is for some men and women to apologize. Just slow down and think about what you're doing before you do it.
     When I was loosing it a couple of days ago, I was well aware of it. I couldn't seem to find time to get stuff done. I was constantly playing catch-up.  I do know what sets me the fuck off. I do know when not to answer the phone, when not to accept invitations to events that I may secretly dislike and may loose it at if not careful. I know, it's simple stuff about oneself that you learn over time and most importantly know when to apply it to your life so as to not take it out on people you love or drink or shoot up melted butter (wish I could), Don't set yourself up for failure. Take a breather. I have to plan for the weekends in advance so as to not waste them. I like to try to spend em with people I like and make me feel better. Now I'm set I've tried to not overload my calendar and make time for the things that are really important. The things that bring you back to life when you might be too tired or overworked and wonder what does it all mean. So you take a step back and just try to enjoy the ride.
    It's the Holidays for goodness sake, there is so much glitter and lights and it costs nothing to take a stroll and enjoy it. Lights everywhere anywhere this time of year so take a minute and just have a visual overload to last 'till next year, yes?
    Now hand me my pants I've got to go for a walk.

HELLO WINTER!!!

Hello everyone!!!                                             
and Hello Winter!!!


A special hello to everyone who took all the necessary steps to have a very blessed and happy set of Holidays (sometimes you have to, and that may include serving virgin eggnog, in plastic cups only, yes... just like at a concert). A big bravo to those that haven't said a mean thing that they will regret soon enough. To those that that haven't fucked up royally (the only way it's done during the Holidays), by yelling in front of relatives, guests and friends something shockingly mean to someone else, even if they fucking had it coming (unless you'd been planning on it or set it up for maximum effect, in which case you get a different kind of shout out you silly silly DRAMA QUEEN lovinya).
   But even if you did or didn't fuck up yet, there's still some days left, you know. Even if you did fuck up: So What?? Give yourself a break. Get and give some hugs, it's just another day. Tomorrow, we'll show them. It's cold here so let me get my pants on.

I'm gonna leave you with a gift of cold sonic lullabies . The Band: COCTEAU TWINS.
                                                                                  The Album: Treasure

ARG! The end of the year

    I'm not freaking out.
What started out as a little project to clear out some stuff has turned into something that is never ending. I intended to help a friend with the "redesigning" of his four average walls and along the way I figured I should update some other things around the apartment and ...I can't stop (sigh). I started organizing the kitchen shelves and have come to include the hall closet shelves, the bathroom shelves, and finally the coat closet shelf. I've started to mess around with the book shelves, a completely different task altogether,  and yet they are all somehow connected.

    How has everyone been? We are approaching the end of the year quickly and this has some folks freaking the eff out. I mean me. I'm freaking the eff out. What other explanation is there for my deciding to fix everything around the apartment. I do mean everything. I have plans for the whole thing and I can't stop. It's the end of the year jitters. Don't worry, everyone things will work out. They always do, you'll see. Hope everyone else is doing better than myself. If you are not doing any better; the same advice applies: don't worry. It will be over soon. And we can all get back to normal. I gotta go dude, where's my pants?
    Here is some New Order